What's so hard?

My mess of a something

I love to work with my hands so lately I have been getting into trying to teach myself how to crochet with only the interweb to help guide me. It's free to say that all I have learned in a two day time spanned is how to sc, ch, and dc (single, chain, and double), how to mess up a lot, and how to unravel more than half of what I was working on. Crochet looks really simple! I mean a loop here, another there, what's so hard about doing that? A lot!


Half the time I just want to give up and go make a kandi bracelet, or go make a friendship bracelet, but I know that in the end I will be happy I learned how to do this. So for right now I'm going to drive myself insane and go and want to give up everyday, but I won't.

There is a saying that goes:

"Whether you think you can, or think you can't, you are right."
      ~ Henry Ford

You guys have all heard something along the lines like this, but I think this hits home a little more. Don't believe you can do it, you have slim chances of doing it. Think you can, and you can do it no matter how bad it is.  Most times in life it is getting it done that counts, not how you do it.

I'm not going to give up on learning how to make a hat or throw. You shouldn't give up on what you want. Just today I was at a GSA meeting and this girl randomly ran in and screamed, "I DID IT!! I GOT INTO YALE!! THE FOUR YEARS OF HELL WERE SOO WORTH IT!!"

If you want to do something, don't just want make it happen.

Couldn't DEICED

I deiced, since I couldn't decide on a single quote, that I would look up three different kinds of quotes and pick the first one I see from each kind and go from there. So here is the first one in the kind "popular quotes."

"Don't think of yourself as an ugly person. Think of yourself as a beautiful monkey."
      - Unknown

I'm not kidding. That was the first one to pop up. At first I thought it was going to be a very nice and sentimental quote, but then the monkey part came up and that thought went out the window for a moment. I thought about if for a second and then I realized that it is true (I'm having a very slow day today). If you believe in humans evolving from primates, we are all very beautiful creatures, cause all nature is beautiful. But, in that same line of thought why don't some creatures think we/they are ugly. We are all nature, even when we deiced to go against the nature that we all know.

The second quote is very different from the first one from the "change quotes" type thingy.

"The secret of change is to focus all of your energy, not on flighting the old, but on building the new."
      - Socrates

I can't really say that I disagree with this quote that much, in fact I total agree! *hint hint sarcasm sarcasm* I really distaste this quote, but I must say it does have a ring of truth to it. But, remembering the past helps you change, I get that you shouldn't fight it, but the feeling I'm getting from this quote is that you should just up leave your past. First, that is practically impossible to do. Second, giving all your energy is not going to help at all. I say to remember your past, but not let it control you. Think about your past now and then, remember why you are the way you are right now.

The third quote is a "Sherlock quote", I just started the BBC show and am loving it.

"The little things are infinitely the most important."
      - Sherlock Holmes

I do agree in a way that small things are very important, and not just because Sherlock said it. If it wasn't for the little things no one would remember anyone's birthday or the fact that they love the color green or yellow or what ever it is. People wouldn't feel the need to put makeup on and authors wouldn't up tiny details in the books they write. While little things aren't the most import, they sure do make life more exciting.

A little thing that makes life interesting.

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Proven Quote

I looked down today and saw one of my necklaces; it has a music note on it and a quote. The quote is one that I prove right everyday.

"Music speaks what cannot be expressed, soothes the mind and gives it rest, heals the heart and makes it whole, flows from Heaven to the soul. "
       - Unknown


(With my music a lot of people says it sounds like the devil is screaming.) Music is a constant in my life. With music I feel like noting can hurt me . . . . well sometimes I feel like that. (Random fact: in my friend group taking out/off our headphones is punishable by a strong smack to the shoulder.) Music is something that I have with me at all times. If you don't see me with headphones something is wrong with me, that or they are hidden in my shirt because I just got out of class.

Music is something that can change a person's mood, very quickly. A lot of people I know listen to loud music when they are angry at the world and need to let out some steam, or listen to sad music when they not feeling so great. One of my friends has panic attacks, so she'll listen to music to calm herself down. My favorite songs are songs that I can connect with. If you ever heard "Waiting for Superman" by Daughtry, you kind of have an idea of what I'm saying.

Sometimes when my depression gets really bad, I'll just sit on my bed and listen to some music that tells a sad story. Let's admit it, if you listen to someone tell story a story, it usually sounds better in a song. Not only is it shorter, but it also has a beat, they is just something about it that makes it ten times better.

I don't know about the "flows from Heaven" part, 'cause some music doesn't sound too happy or too "heavenly". But, it deffently does help the soul. Sometimes I can't 'eat enough of music'.

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One Single Terrifing Word

Alone. A single solitary word that scares people. Being alone is a fear that most people have in common. I get that it can seam doubting, but being alone isn't that bad. Trust me I would know. (My dads a pilot and my mom is a flight attendant, so they're not home much. Add in the fact that they are divorced and you get a kid that grew up mostly alone. I learned how to entertain myself and cook for myself by the time I was 8. ) Sometimes we are even better off alone, that way no one can hurt us.

"Do not tell anyone your story. You will end up feeling more rejected . . . The more you expect from people's response to your experiences of abandonment, the more you will feel exposed to ridicule."
                - Unknown

When you tell people your story, the mystery of why you are the way you are is gone, and they may not stay; leading to a feeling of complete rejection.  And rejection is not a great feeling to feel. After all they may not know how to respond to your story or something may just not sit right with them about it. Every story is different and unique. Yours may be semi-similar to your friends and that may be why you guys get along so well. So, if your story is very different from someone you may end up disliking them with strong emotions.

It's hard to not tell people your story sometimes, I know I can get carried away with talking. Talking about your past and listening to someone else's is a good way to pass time and a great way to get to know them. But, you should leave some room for telling a story later. 


It's a good idea to spread out the time that you tell your story, so it isn't all at once. Telling them all at once is too much information to have throw at them. Think about it: would you rather study for a test in one night or spread out the studying over a week or so? 

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I told you a little about my background to show that I know what it is like to be alone. I usually am alone, no one can hurt me that way. No one can hurt you if you are alone. This is where it gets tricky. You need to not be alone all the time. You need to find a middle on this subject, and that is really hard. And I can't tell you where it is, as I haven't found it yet. 

Alone one word that is terrifying to hear, or maybe it isn't. Do you like to be alone?

The Truth?

We all have those days where we just want to curl up in a ball and not do anything for a while. We all have those day where all we want to do is just sleep, not because we are tired, but we just don't want to be awake. (I don't know about you guys but I have days where all I want to do is curl up in a ball in a dark conner and read or watch a show.) Life brings us down every once and a while, that's just what it does. That's what it's good at.

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Dear the person who put suicide is 100% preventable on the internet,


You are a gullible imbecile. If someone is really suicidal you can't stop them. Yes, maybe you can postpone the undeniable fact that they are going to end up dead by their own hand. But, in the end they will walk in front of a car, knowing fully well how much that is going hurt, when you are with them. If you try to shelter them from the world, they are just going to be more depressed. No matter what you do, you can't change the fact that they are suicidal.

On the note of being depressed and suicidal, here's a quote I've seen a lot on Tumblr.

"If I killed myself tonight, the stars would still appear, the sun would still come out, the earth would still rotate, the seasons would still change . . . so why not?"
              - Unknown

While that is all true, it is also true that you dying may make those things seam very useless. Without you, their reason for living and breathing is gone.  All they may want to do now is curl up in a ball and stay there for the rest of their life timespan. Nothing may seam important to them anymore, and all they want to do is see you again.

It's okay to be suicidal, but it is not okay to say that everything would be fine without you in the world. You don't know how they feel. The people that bully you my say that the world would be better without you in it, but they don't know that for sure. A person that you don't know that well may have a crush on you, they don't want you gone. A teacher that treats you harshly, may just want to see more of how amazing you are. They definitely don't want you gone

I'm not trying to guilt you into not dying, just think about all the people that you are leaving behind. All the people that will miss you.

Life does got too much to handle sometimes, I know. But there has to be at least one reason, no matter how pathetic it sounds, to stay in this lifetime. Maybe you want too see how that one character ends up. Or maybe you want to help someone, anyone, that was in your position. Maybe it could be to see who wins the Super Bowl.

No matter how weird your reason may sound, or how insane it is, it is a reason. And they are hard to come by.

Horror Time

In honor of American Horror Story's new series premiering tonight let us look at a couple of the famous quotes from one of the most supreme shows I have ever seen. Not only is the show full of twist and turns and  . . . some of the most bizarre things that shows on TV.

For season one, Murder House, let's look at this one thoughtful quote:

"The devil is real and he isn't a little red man with horn and a tail he can be beautiful, because he's a fallen angel and he used to be god's favorite."
           - AHS:MH

I just find it insane that someone thought of this. It is just so simple that it is crazy. And he did used to be god's favorite. But then at the same time if god really was mad at him, at the time, he could have taken away his beauty. It is also telling you that the most attractive person could be a devil in disguise, trying to get you to do his dirty work. Out of all of the quotes that American Horror Story has to offer that is probably one of my all time favorites.

For season two, Asylum, the only huge thing that pops up in my mind is the "Name Game" song. Have a listen to refresh your memory.

There really isn't anything to say about this one. . . . Well when she tries to rhyme Kit's name, does anyone else think it sound . . . off?

For season three's, Coven,  quote is from the voodoo king (I think that was what he was labeled as).

"No one gets away with sin. Eventually, everybody pays. Everybody suffers."
           - AHS:C

And it is true. If you don't pay for your sins by your self someone else is going to pay with you. What would you prefer you doing down gracefully or pulling someone down to hell with you?

Also from my favorite season off all time there is one more quote.

"Surprise bitch. I bet you thought you have seen the last of me."
     - AHS: C

If you don't know who said that then watch the season. Trust me it is worth all the scares and WTF moments.

I don't have one for season four, as it is premiering tonight, but I hope to come back and do a more detailed look at the quotes from this tv show. As these were just a quick glance in on them.

NOW for a picture of the hott Evan Peters, cause you know he's going to be Jimmy.

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Not Talking But Talking

The way I found this quote is a really bland story. But, I'm going to tell you anyways. I went on chrome and looked up quotes in images. I saw tumblr quotes, thought "I love tumblr," then clicked on it. Next I saw friendship quotes and I thought "well I was just hanging out with some friends so that should work." Boring I know, but I think it is semi-relevant to what this quote is about.

"The best kind of friendship is the kind you sit with, never say a word and walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you ever had."

                                - Steven Wright 

I may not talk to one of my bestfriends/sister that much, but when we do talk it can last up until our phones drain from 80% to 5%. Yes, we go to different schools. And, yes we do know each other in really life. (In fact I have known this tall blonde since I was born. I'm really not kidding. I was born and she was in her mom's womb.) But, she is a ski racer and I'm a softball player, so when she is busy I'm free and when I'm busy she is free. It is amazing, I just love it. *eye roll* 

We don't really have to talk to understand each other. I know so typical of a girl to claim that, but it is true. . . . . I think. She looks at me and I just know she is plotting an evil scheme to take over the world . . . . .  I'm kidding. I know she just wants chocolate and maybe to take over the world but that completely and totally comes second to chocolate. 

I will walk into her house and she just throws a pillow at me and telling me its too early in the morning for me to be functioning. For more than half the day we won't really talk. We'll just read a book or watch a show on our own. 'Cause all that really matters to us is that we are together and that we have each other. I'll leave and I don't feel like I just wasted the whole day doing nothing, cause I did nothing with my soul sister. 

I don't really know if anyone else has a friendship like that. Where you can just laying in bed doing nothing, not even talking, but, yet, somehow feel like you are talking. I will never understand how that works, but it does. It may sound crazy if it is taken out of context. Please tell me I'm not the only one that feels that this does happen? I don't mean to come across as a creep. 

Me and my best-friend in Hawaii for vacation. Hint: she's the beautiful one. 

p.s. Go listen to this song. My soul sister loves it for some reason. 

Two Hearts?

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Quotes hold a lot of meaning. The significance can differ form person to person, from time to time. I love quotes more than an intelligent being could ever understand.  I hope that you like quotes as well, cause that is all that is here. One of the more meaningful quotes about love is a little more in the direction of  . . . "That's smart, why didn't I think of that?"

 
"We were given: two hands to hold. Two legs to walk. Two eyes to see. Two ears to listen. But why only one heart? Because the other was given to someone else. For us to find."

                           - Unknown

Why were we given just one heart? I know that there is loads of scientific reasoning, but just in the aspect of the thought. The human race has two of almost everything: eyes, hands, legs, kidneys, lugs, nostrils. Also, the funny thing is that we can live without having a double of most of the stuff we have. Yes, it helps to have both, but it does make you wonder. And I do know that we don't have two of everything, we just have two of the basics. 

So, if a hand is a basic, why isn't a heart? Do we really have to find the other person that has the rest of our heart? What would happen if we find them and they don't want us? But what would happen if we don't find them? Would we just live the rest of our life alone, trying to fill the hole?

We all want that one person to come a sweep us off out feet. I want that too. But, that gives us another question on the long list of questions that keeps getting larger and more detailed and difficult to answer: why do we need someone to make us feel whole? I know my version of the answer: we are humans and made to be loved and not be alone. Each person can have a different out look, but that is just mine, and it may change over time.

We all have a different out look on each little-tiny-minuscule idea. What's your idea on this one idea?

"We were given: two hands to hold. Two legs to walk. Two eyes to see. Two ears to listen. But why only one heart? Because the other was given to someone else. For us to find."

                           - Unknown
    (just incase you forgot the quote)